Tuesday, December 22, 2009

My Heart Hurts

My heart hurts, it is shattered today. I knew of the BFN even before I even tested. I shouldn't have tested, just another $1 and a handful of tears down the drain.

My heart hurts and my mind is burdened with the knowledge that the only people who can comfort me right know, that truly understand my plight, can only give virtual hugs. I do appreciate the community found online, but still there's something powerful about someone who is there to wipe away the tears.

When will it be my turn? When can I experience the bundle of joy?


  1. I am so sorry! I know nothing I can say can make it feel better, but I'm so sorry that AF showed. Big hugs to you!!

  2. I wish I could tell you things will be better. But I know that hearing it from a stranger does not always help.

    I will say this though? I have been there waaaaaaay too many months and tries. I finally got pregnant. And now I am 22 weeks along. I am still in shock.

    My name is Beth and I talk about it a lot, too. http://www.ivfgirl.com is where you find me.

    My email address is ivfgirl@gmail.com.

    And I am on twitter where I added you as a friend tonight.

    I hope 2010 is your year. I know it sucks sometimes but this WILL work out.


  3. The bummer is AF decided to be late. I'm NEVER longer than 15 days in my LP. I was 16 and she showed up midday on Christmas. I had renewed hope Christmas morning. Thankfully I didn't share the news with DH, that would have been harder to have to retract that news.